I started a Novena for my grampa. I am on my 6th day.
I’ve received peace and am starting to accept the fact that he is really not around anymore. It HURTS, but I’m accepting it. This is a time of mourning for me, so I have made it a point to not go “have fun” until after some time has passed… out of respect for him. My girls have suggested going places they’re used to going, but I’ve said no, and I’ve explained why. Even though my daughters weren’t very attached to my grandpa, they respect my grief. After all, they know that all the “fun” stuff will be there when I’m ready.
I love my daughters and my husband… they give me strength. Because of them, I’ve been able to smile and even laugh even though I’m hurting inside.