Today it hit me, my baby shower is next week and this is how I feel. My sister wanted to throw me a surprise baby shower but let my hubby know, and he told her I don’t like surprises, so they let me know, *phew*! Don’t get me wrong, I DO like surprises, I just don’t like surprises that are going to make ME the center of attention in front of 20+ people. I get nervous enough knowing that I will be the center of attention as it is, being a surprise would have given me a mild heart attack lol! I know I am going to be around people who love me, but I just can’t help being nervous. I guess all I can do now is try to relax and keep myself busy doing things that distract me from thinking about it… but lets face it, nothing’s going to help.